I just phoned Keith – he is busy at work but took the time out to speak to me.  I would describe Keith as:

Dark, tall, sexy, intelligent, open minded, spiritual, healer, good sense of humour, Mr Nice Guy

He is a long time friend – we met in a dance, chatted and danced all night.  He has asked me out more than once and I have asked him – there is a connection – spiritual and emotional – we have hung out – as friends.  I have not seen him for a while.  I remember in times of despair he was always there at the end of the phone or in person – he often came to my rescue like a knight in shining armour and healed the pain.  He is a great listener.  He loves my cooking.

I am so glad Keith is in my life.

Lauretta x

It is Friday and I am still pissed.  I am trying to move forward from yesterdays events but it is all still raw.  Did a lot of crying.  Woke up hard – faced and realised if I do not change I will bring negative vibes towards myself.  Got an opportunity to rave tonight but I am not the girl at the mo.  The little voice is saying snap out of it – I am doing my best – I sulk sometimes – can’t help it. (yes I can if I try) I am reflecting on yesterdays events and will now move forward because as I am still living in ‘the past’ I am missing out on today – ‘the now’.  I have scribed an email of complaint and action and will leave it for a few days to reflect on and if all is well will send it Tuesday- latest.  I will get on with plan ‘B’ or should I say Plan ‘A’ as this course was never plan ‘A’.  I am glad that I am a go getter who will bounce back.  But being honest all this ‘bouncing back’ can be exhausting.

This country (UK) has a huge issue – they find a dynamic, intelligent black woman ‘challenging’ they would rather problemtise her, stereotype her, devaluate her rather that believe she is worth listening to and is something great. 

Some people are born great, some people achieve greatness and some people have greatness thrust upon them.

Lar